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    Hard Head Huge Heart

    When I boxed in college, I never got knocked down. In one fight, my nose got broken so badly I looked like a cartoon character. I incurred black eyes, bloody lips, and gashes on my face. I could take a punch. Because, literally, I have a hard fuckin' head.

    That's an asset in fighting. Not so much anywhere else. In the figurative sense, I'm capable of having a hard head when I do life. I can be one resistant, stubborn mofo. Not proud of that, but at last coming to terms with it. Particularly around my struggles with substances. 

    At the same time, I have a huge heart. When I love you, I love you with all I have. When I love you, I'll take a bullet for you. 

    Sometimes, my hard head and huge heart are at odds with one another. My stone headedness comes from a place of fear, whilst my big heart comes from a place of love. The two don't mix well. They don't play well together. 

    I'm working on softening both. And strengthening both. At times, I don't have a clue how to do that. Really, my ultimate objective is to change the paradigm. To change the game. To raise my whole life to another level. To approach the whole challenge from someplace else. From a wiser, more enlightened place.

    I know I have that in me. I proved it to myself in treatment. I'm proving it to myself every day.

    I don't want it to feel like a war, anymore.

    I'm doing that one day, one hour, sometimes, one moment, at a time.


     ©2017 Clint Piatelli, MuscleHeart LLC, and Red f Publishing. All rights reserved.

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