Shopping Foreplay

       Last week, at my friend’s fiftieth birthday party, a group of women I had yet to meet commented on my attire, and a conversation started. Clothing serves as a staple conversation piece in our culture, both because it’s an easy thing to start talking about, and because it remains an evocative form of expression.
       My father found small talk incredibly boring, and I take right after him. I try to move conversations into the more meaningful realm pretty quickly, even if I’ve never met you. If we’re talking about the weather, for example, after we agree or disagree on how great it is or how much it sucks, I want to know if the weather fascinates you. If it doesn’t, what does? Let’s get beyond the completely superficial as soon as possible and get to something real, something interesting, something about you and something about me. I’ll show you a few of the cards in my deck. Are you willing to show me one of yours?
       So in this virgin conversation about clothing with these women I just met, I threw something against the wall, being pretty sure it would stick. I offered that I really enjoy clothes shopping with my honey. The girls’ ears perked up, their gazes fixed upon me, and they wanted to know more. So I told them.
       I said that, if I’m with a woman, it’s a foregone conclusion that I’m into what she looks like, and I’m into what she wears. She’s beautiful. So if I’m into her, it makes sense, to me, that watching her try on different outfits would be fun and exciting. And it is. The last time I went shopping with my ex-girlfriend, I watched her try on dresses in the petite section of.....some gigantic major department store (I’m always confusing the names of those places). I watched her try on pants at The Gap. I watched her try on shoes at DSW (even bought her a pair of sexy boots). I loved it. Totally turned me on. More than once.
       Most guys, I told the women, miss out on this. They focus on how boring shopping can be. They focus on what they’re missing out on. Maybe they focus on how much this might cost them. Possibly valid concerns, but those can be easily mitigated by putting parameters in place. And while they focus on all of that, there’s this hot babe they’re with, undressing over and over again, trying on outfits, some of which look great on her, right in front of them. Hello! Wake up boys!
       I asked the girls how many of their boyfriend’s, past or present, know their shoe size, and ever bought them a pair of shoes. No for both across the board. Again, men are asleep at the wheel here. Most women love shoes. When a man knows her shoe size, it means he’s paying attention. To her. To details. When he buys her a pair of shoes, in her size, that she digs, it means he’s paying even more attention to her, he’s making time for her, and he’s showing her he cares. Buying her a pair of shoes is an intimate act. Which could be another reason men don’t do it. Because intimacy is hard for most men.
       Men generally just do not pay enough attention to their female partners. These days, plenty of women don’t pay enough attention to their men either. If you’re not paying attention, you need to rediscover what about the person enthralls you. It’s still there, but sometimes you have to go looking for it. It’s gotten lost in the shuffle of life. What’s beautiful and remarkable about your lover gets buried beneath what’s not right about them, what’s not right about the relationship, what’s not right about your own life. Those things may be real. But that shit gets way too much air time in most relationships.
       Shopping with your partner can be an afternoon of foreplay. Especially if you can sneak or finagle your way into your girl’s dressing room while she’s trying stuff on (one of my favorites, but often difficult to pull off). Unfortunately, lots of men forget about foreplay just as well as they forget to pay attention. So it takes a shift of attitude, and focus, on a few levels. But it’s all right there. Right beneath the surface. Go find it. It's in the Women’s Shoes Department.

©2013 Clint Piatelli, MuscleHeart, and Red F Publishing. All Rights Reserved.

Constrasting The Contrast

“Maybe I'm like acts of Congress or your favorite Chinese restaurant - you don't really want to know what's going on behind the door. I'm a real study in contrast, I expect, looking from without. But it adds up to what you get on stage.”
                  - David Lee Roth

       When I saw this quote from my all time favorite frontman, it immediately struck a chord, in both what it illuminates, and in what it shadows. In that quote, I saw myself. I saw all of us.
       Unlike what Diamond Dave professes above, I have always wanted to know “what’s going on behind the door”. Both in myself and in you. Knowing what’s happening there, however, means you have to look. You have to dig. Sometimes quite deep. You have to go places that maybe you either don’t want to go, or have no idea how to get to, or both.
       It’s easy to get lost inside ourselves. That’s why we need guides. Like counselors, therapists, books, gurus, groups, and each other. We’re not supposed to go there alone, at least not all of the time. The journey within is at once a very private venture and one that needs to be shared.
       That sharing, however, is scary. Maybe even scarier than going alone. Because to share, we have to let someone in. And the further we let someone in, the scarier it gets. But that closeness creates true intimacy. And true intimacy is the richest, most beautiful of places. When we delve into the depths of ourselves and share that journey with others close to us, we create truly beautiful connections.
       So I’ll tell you what’s behind my door. I’ll explore that universe with you. And I’ll ask you to do the same with me. You don’t have to, but I will encourage you by leading by example, and by professing the wondrous benefits of doing so. I want to get closer to you. I want intimacy. Scary? Yes. Difficult? Sometimes. Rewarding? Fuck yeah.
       When you hang it out there, like some of us do, you’re effectively peeling back more of your mask and revealing more of yourself. Your showing more of your sides, more of you. And we are vast. Most of us hide our insecurities, fears, doubts, and glaring imperfections. We want to look a certain way. We want to look good to the outside world. Inside, there’s an awful lot going on, but nobody, or very few, ever see it.
       So when someone like me dares to pull back the veil and show you more, it confounds some people. Like in Diamond Dave’s case, it can appear to be a study in contrast. But only if we fail to understand what’s behind the door.
       When I began blogging, I opened up and became vulnerable. I started sharing some of my deepest thoughts and feelings. I exposed some of my fears and insecurities. Even some of my closest friends had no idea that my inner world could be so fraught with such pain and sadness. Because I didn’t appear that way.
       So who’s the real me, you may ask. Well, I’m all of it. When I’m the life of the party, it’s not an act. When I’m wearing the wild shirt, orchestrating creative mayhem, laughing and dancing, that’s the real me. It’s just not all of me. With people I love, and through my blog, I have learned to give the other parts of me the exposure they need.
       Who says I can’t be a wild man and a tender soul? Who says I can’t be really secure and truly confident sometimes, and insecure and full of self doubt at others? Who says it’s contradictory because sometimes I want to make love and sometimes I want to fuck? Who says I can’t be a top one night and a bottom the next?
       Who am I? I’m all of it. I’ll tell you that. I’ll show you that. If you don’t understand, I’ll help you get me. I’ll write about it. If you’re interested, I’ll talk to you, I’ll spend time with you, sharing more and more of myself. Going deeper. And if you still don’t get me, maybe that has more to do with your own limiting beliefs about how vast and complex you are. Maybe you don’t spend enough time letting light into your darkness. And if that’s the case, tell me. I want to hear it. I’ll be there for you. But you’ve gotta be vulnerable. And you’ve gotta dig deep. I’ll hold your hand, the whole way. And I won’t let go. No matter what.     
       When I get close to a person, I encourage them to share with me how afraid they really are. How insecure they really are. Because I can see it anyway. Having spent enough time in my own stuff has honed by intuitiveness, my intuition, and my sensitivity to that. You can't hide from me. And I don't want you to. I want you to open up to me. Because that’s part of the real you that gets precious little air time.
       Showing me your fears and pains and insecurities does not freak me out. In fact, it creates a deeper, more loving bond. I will in fact love you even more, not less. That tenderness and truth and vulnerability is beautiful to me. And in most everybody, that tenderness and truth and vulnerability needs to see the light of day far more often. More time needs to be spent there, sharing it with safe people you love and trust. Because in that process, not only do deeper, more meaningful connections get formed, but you allow light to reach the darkness. And then the dark isn’t so dark anymore. Or scary. Or shameful.
       Some of the most beautiful and precious moments of my life have been spent with people I love as they open up to me and share some of their deepest pains, deepest fears, and most disruptive unresolved issues. The tears they shed with me are priceless gifts; more precious than any material item they could ever give me. On the outside, most would never guess that this person had this going on underneath. Because we don’t show that. It’s considered weakness or frailty or just too much. Bullshit.
       I challenge that. I’m not saying that you have to share your pains and insecurities with everybody. But you have to share it with somebody. And chances are you have to share it a lot more than you do now. Because those dark places inside of us need the light of love and understanding and care. They need to be nurtured. They are not ugly, but beautiful. They just don’t know it. You just don’t know it. But I’m here to tell you that’s the way it is.


©2013 Clint Piatelli, MuscleHeart, and Red F Publishing. All Rights Reserved.

      

Rhythm Brothers

My friend Mike is one of the best bass players I've ever worked with. Him and I create a positively kick ass rhythm section. This shot was taken at The Courtyard in Cataumet, circa 2004, during a gig. I love this dude very much.

When You Kiss Her

When you kiss Her
Inhale deeply
For you are breathing the rarified air of Her scent
A scent that She does not share with everyone
But has chosen to share with you

When you look at Her
Be awed
Be overwhelmed
Be raptured
For you are looking upon the most beautiful of creations

When you think of Her
Only remind yourself of Her greatness
Remind yourself
Of all the things She does that make you smile in your quiet moments
The moments when nobody sees you smile
Then, look at Her one day
And smile
When She asks “What are you smiling about?”
Say
“I'm smiling about you, and all the times I’ve smiled about you that you’ve never seen.....”

When you listen to Her
Hear the song of what She says
Hear the symphony of Her soul
She’s singing it to you
Sing yours back to Her
And create music together

When you touch Her
Pay attention
For Her responses will speak to you
In the language of how to please Her

When She dresses
Notice
Comment
Compliment
The Details
Toenail polish
Eye liner
Shoes
Hair style
Earrings
The list goes on
Discover it
For She has done this for you
It is Her gift
A most precious gift
Appreciate it
The way you would all the planet’s gold

When you make love with Her
Give to Her your Everything
Make Her Needs
Her Desires
Her Ecstasy
The most important of worlds

And
When you are with Her
Make Her
The only thing on earth
That matters......

                                      - Clint Piatelli

©2013 Clint Piatelli, MuscleHeart, and Red F Publishing. All Rights Reserved.

Only The Good Die Young

       “We may be laughing a bit too loud. But that never hurt no one.”
       That’s a line from a Billy Joel song, “Only The Good Die Young”. And it flashed through my mind the other night when I went to see the movie This is Spinal Tap with a group of people, on the big screen, for the first time in years.
       I laughed so hard, so often, that I would have welcomed an oxygen tank. My twin brother sat next to me, and he was just as breathless. I left the movie mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted. Like I had just run a 10K. Hard. I was spent.
       That’s exactly how I want to feel when I experience art. In fact, that’s how I want to feel after I experience anything intense in life. Movies. Music. Exercise. Sex. The list goes on. But that’s another post.
       If you go to a comedy to laugh, and the movie hits you where it counts, then laugh. Don’t be worried about laughing too loud or too often. I mean that’s the whole fucking point of going. But in a society that does not encourage the expression of emotions, this can be dicey. Societal Norms (a quasi-oxymoron in many situations) are very restrictive around expression. Societal Norms tell us that "It’s okay to laugh and cry, but only in these situations, and only under these conditions. And even then, don’t laugh too much or too loud. Don’t cry too much. Stay inside the box. Don’t paint outside the lines.".
       Well the best living happens when you paint outside the fucking lines.
       And as a man who knows quite a bit about audio, let me tell you that if you’re laughing so loud at a movie that that it becomes difficult for people around you to hear the movie, then that’s an indictment of theater management, not you. If someone can’t hear the audio over your laughter, the sound isn’t loud enough. Theater management should know that. And they should crank it up. Before the movie even starts.
       I’m not talking about purposefully disrupting anybody’s enjoyment. I’m not talking about pulling a "Robert DeNiro as Max Cady from Cape Fear" move in a theater. What I’m talking about is working with our own self consciousness, with our own inhibitions; already high enough when we’re alone or in small groups, but heightened to dizzying platitudes when we’re in a crowd.
       Art is created to illicit an emotional response. It’s through that emotional response that we connect to the art. More importantly, it’s through that emotional response that we connect to each other, and to the artist himself. Or herself. What an amazingly beautiful concept. If an artist makes a movie or writes a book or sings a song and it doesn’t move you, then the art hasn’t connected to you. For you, the art hasn’t done its job. Okay. But if it does move you, then let it move you all the way. Let it all the way in, and allow it to touch you as deeply as it can. Let it do its job. Then, and here's the real tricky part, trust your own expression of it. Allow it all the way in. Allow it all the way out. Like deep breathing. And like deep breathing, doing this with what moves and touches us creates a much deeper, richer, fuller, more satisfying, more intense, more beautiful experience.
       If I’m so moved by a comedy that I laugh so hard that at times I can barely breathe, then Mission Accomplished. That’s why I went. I trust myself that I’m not going to become out of control and ruin somebody’s night. But many of us are so afraid of causing a scene, or drawing attention to ourselves, or god forbid, doing something that causes a complete stranger not to like us, that we pull back from such laughter without even realizing it. It becomes a nearly automatic reaction. Without even knowing it’s happening, the voice inside of us goes “It’s okay to laugh aloud, here in the theater, but watch it! Don’t laugh too loud! Keep a sharp eye on how much you’re laughing, and at what volume. Don’t ever put the pedal to the metal. Reign it in. Pull back. Don’t let yourself go.”
       We live in a world that’s constantly trying to get us to conform. To fit in. To tow the line. Not just in public, but in private. The power and the depth of emotions and expression makes many of us uncomfortable, even when we’re alone with people we love. Let’s reexamine that. Together.
    Stay with me as I explore this more.


©2013 Clint Piatelli, MuscleHeart, and Red F Publishing. All Rights Reserved.